Wednesday, November 20, 2013

what happened the night I injured myself...

Even as I entered the arena, I had a feeling something bad was going to happen. The ball entered and I raced for it. Unfortunately someone else got there first and the ball just barely tapped my leg as it whizzed out. I was out. So I went to climb out. Unfortunately something happened with my leg as I was coming out.
It felt like it went left, right, hyper-extended, and had the kneecap pop out all at the same time. I fell over. At that moment I knew what a haze of pain was. I literally had no input to my brain other than that of the excruciating pain from what ever happened in my knee. I had about 10 seconds of completely white vision. I finally noticed what was happening around me when I heard Jackie asking me if I needed my parents. I still wasn’t sure what had happened so I dazedly sat up and murmured to her that no, no I don’t think I need anyone.
Then I tried to brush everyone away saying oh it was just my kneecap popping out. I felt the outside of my leg and determined that my kneecap was in place so I asked for a hand up. I almost screamed (but did not) because of the amount of pain my knee was sending me as I tried to stand. I immediately sat back down.
I asked for help to scoot over next to the wall. I sat there trying not to cry and figure what had happened. A bad feeling slowly formed in the pit of my stomach.  Jackie came up with my dad in tow, and I was extremely grateful that she didn’t listen to me and went and got him. Dad helped me to move into the usher’s station as we tried to assess how to handle the issue. Mrs. Bittner came in and dad asked if there was any ibuprofen around, she went to go get it. Dad carefully checked my leg and said it looked like nothing was wrong; it might just be a bad bruise. Mrs. Bittner came back with ice, water, and the pills.
I took the pills and held the bag of ice on my leg. Some of my friends came in and sat and talked to me. They came and they went, for a while I didn’t really pay attention to the conversation. In my head I was coming up with the worst scenario possible. Eventually I just broke down and was crying for a bit as they prayed for me. (For some reason that reminded me of my first Youth Camp lol J ) I gained control of my emotions as the girls were talking to me, and was able to even smile.
When we got home that night, I was up in my room on my bed. (I’m not entirely how I got to the car, then to my house, then up the stairs, but it happened somehow) I was sitting there trying to listen to the pain signals my leg was sending me, but oddly there were few. I moved my ankle. Then I started crying and panicking because I could not feel my leg at all.
My mom came up and saw me crying and asked if the pain had gotten worse. I told her I could not feel my leg, she then went downstairs to talk to dad. A few minutes later dad came up and told me that we were going to go to the emergency room. (I was not very happy about that…)